"It was not you!"

believe we are always offered an opportunity to walk the path that brings fulfillment to our soul's purpose.

Baby lying with sunlight streaming through window.

Recently, I was asked to share a little bit about my holistic journey and work as an intuitive healer. I now sit in gratitude and appreciation for extending a powerful gift of reflection.

"Well, I think I’d have to dive way back and as I do it actually brings up a painful reflection… as a very, very young child, I knew that people were attracted to my light. I knew I was intuitive but didn’t know what that meant. It was scary. I remember saying it out loud when I was four or five, "I have this light inside me", and people looking at me oddly like, "that's a dumb thing to say", or they would say, “You are way too sensitive. You need to toughen up!”

Unfortunately, as a young girl, I encountered people who would take advantage of my light (I've come to learn this is quite common with other lightworkers). I was molested, abandoned, shamed, and began to dim myself -because of course, it was all my fault attracting people with my light. And I knew things… couldn’t say those things out loud though or I was called “a liar”. I began to keep it all contained inside.

A decade or so later, as a teenager, I felt a calling from deep inside. I remembered my light and it was begging to shine. My intuition kept showing up, begging to be trusted. I experienced a lot of self doubt from the gas lighting of those closest to me. But eventually, I began to trust that I could rely on my light and intuition, to guide me and move me forward on my path. I am a lightworker. I am a healer. I am an expression of love. This is my gift.

“It was not you”, is the message I receive now and send to my younger self and to others with similar experiences. "It was not you. You did nothing wrong. Do not dim your light. Don’t do it anymore. You don’t have to be afraid. Let your light shine."

Shelly Varelli arms wide open in lavender field

I’ve taken many paths to get here. but I’ve always circled back… to honor the earth, the universe, and all its abundant offerings. Often others will remark “you’re the Jack of all trades”, or “what don’t you do?” I laugh and think, “I lovingly bring all my experiences and skills forward and shine my light as a beacon to support others on their holistic journey. I embrace these opportunities because it is my passion, it is my purpose.”

Love, Shelly